It is my life

2012-01-28T13:48:00.000Z

He is one of a kind-so hard to find

2012-01-28T13:36:00.004Z

Knowing to be different is a big and sometimes difficult challenge but most of all it makes you stronger in the way you do and think about things.

2012-01-21T22:42:00.000Z

I love the picture on my mind of a perfect family. But I know that it isn't possible, not even for them.
But I know that they made the right decision and they will never let go. So cute together I hope I'll find someone like him someday.
Feeling so alone sometimes specially when it's gettin' later and I can't sleep or when I feel sick or had a bad day I would love to have someone who's there knowing what I need.

Keep holding on-belive

2012-01-21T22:24:00.000Z

As long as I keep holding on to that dream I won't loose myself.
And I need him to get along and I need her to give me advice.
But must of all I need to believe to reach the top.

Just learn to believe in yourself so you can change everything you need/want to change.
Make the world a little better with every step you take.

2012-01-07T23:55:00.000Z

During the period of growing up it's important never to loose the child inside your soul.

You and me = not in this way

2012-01-07T23:53:00.000Z

I've seen you lately and were thinking that you've changed a lot since the last time but only from the outside I guess your character still is the same as before so why shall I waste my time with thoughts and feelings for you?

2012-01-06T22:32:00.001Z

When I see what u write to her I have tears in my eyes because I still can't forget.
But I also laugh about you two because I know it's not true love.

Be strong-carry on

2012-01-03T23:25:00.000Z

I’m here ‘causeI want to change my life

I’ll have to bestrong enough to carry on

I need tounderstand and accept changes

There is thisway I choose and I will

Walkin’ on thepath of living

Findin’ my placein the circle of live

See who I am

You don’t seemto change

You’ll have to bestrong enough to dare

You need to meetme again

This way I’ve chosenis right

So I hope and Ican feel it

It will be there

One day

All for me

All the luck

Just on that singleday

I just have touse it

And take thechance

There’ll be onlyone

Don't live life as it is-live it as you are

2011-12-31T02:11:00.000Z

Because you are a single unique creation you'll never find someone who is exactly the same.
And only you can make your life to what it is.
With your dreams you set your plans and with your imagination you create a even bigger perspective of living your life like it should be.
There is only a path drawn with a pencil-so you don't have to stick to it you can use a rubber and make a different path but be careful-you can only change a station once because you have to redraw with a biro and that's forever.

self creation :D

2011-12-30T21:06:00.001Z

It may not be easy to accept who I am but you can't change me `cause it is what I am and I'm proud of it.

Motivation

2011-12-19T14:52:00.001Z

Go out in the world
-work like money doesn't matter
-sing as if no ones is listening
-love as if you have never been hurt
and dance as if no one is watching

There and then

2011-11-29T20:50:00.001Z

Now I'm here standing here on the bridge just waiting for a sign from you but there is none.

I start walking to the direction you should come from and I can't believe my eyes.

From far away I couldn't see what's been going on on your side of the bridge.

I walked through all those crying people just to find someone whom I might know.

And yes I've found some but I didn't wanted to believe what they told me.

I went back with a closer look at all those people in the crowd and yes I saw your best friend.

He was crying I went to him and asked what was going on and he just told me what happened.

I still couldn't believe it, no you can't be death but when I looked down I've seen you blood all over.

But why you? Why friendly people? Do those who just wanted to help always have to be the ones who die?

-YOU JUST WANTED TO HELP AND HE SHOT YOU-

2011-11-29T20:47:00.001Z

I can't forget your smile or voice.
You are amazing and so lovely.

And I just destroyed all those feelings in just one minute.
But why did I do it?
I want you back but don't know how to get you back.

2011-11-29T20:45:00.001Z

I'm here
I've been here
I can't be here
I want to be here

I want to be free
I'm here with my memories all summed up ready to leave
But I can't let them go

On the roof

2011-11-29T20:38:00.001Z

I feel safe on the roof.
Alone with nobody around.
Just me and my memories.

But I miss the time with you up here.
When you were there to hold my hand.
And you told me that you love me.

And now I'm bursting out in tears.
Because I remember what happened.
On the last day with you up here.

You were holding my hand and told me that you have to go because it hurts too much.
I didn't realize what you meant by that.
But before I realized it you were gone so sudden I've been alone up here on the roof.

Honey I miss you so much.
When I'm up here I still can feel your arms around me.
I remember everything.
But I'll also never forget that night.

It's Christmas time or spending more and more money

2011-11-26T23:24:00.001Z

I don't understand it all the people hanging around in shops just to find good presents. Okay it's a nice thing but I always thought Christmas wasn't about presents I thought it's the feast of love and joy and not the time for spending more money than necessary.

Old times

2011-11-25T13:26:00.001Z

Sometimes you think about the past and all the things you had.

You may collected them in a small box and maybe you are so surprised that it seems like the time stood still all the time the box was closed.

But sometimes time can be so fast and you can't return to the past and sometimes you would love to see all those things again but maybe from a different perspective.

2011-11-21T14:52:00.001Z

Why do we let others change us? We may think it's good what they tell us or it will make a big change in our life but somehow our way isn't so easy that we just need to listen what others say. We have to make our own decisions.

It's not a broken heart

2011-11-18T14:40:00.001Z

My heart doesn't hurt 'cause ya left me it hurts 'cause you did teach me a hard but important lesson.So I shouldn't be angry with you I should say 'Thanks' and smile 'cause now I know what I want and need

Touch a touch a touch me :)

2011-11-08T10:08:00.004Z

You could feel my body rise when you touched me
-It felt amazing <3

Last night was like -OMG

2011-11-08T10:04:00.001Z

How did ya manage it it to make me feel so good after all?
I'm really thankfull for that.
I wish we could meet again soon 'cause the desperation is bringing me down <3

2011-11-06T23:41:00.000Z

And it's broken again and the only one who seems to be able to heal it doesn't even know that he could. But who cares it's only my heart-thanks for breaking it again.

Why do you hurt me so much everytime?

2011-11-06T23:36:00.003Z

And you don't even know how I feel. What is if my heart tells me that it is the right decision and I
want it as well. Can't you even imagine how much you've hurt me with what you've said?

I tried to explain it to you so many times but you still don't seem to understand everytime that I try to tell you about it you just shout or ignore me my heart already hurts from all the thorns it'll take a long time till some of the scars will start to heal.

2011-11-02T00:07:00.000Z

Why am I feeling so bad now?
I just told you my feelings and now I'm feeling even worse that before.
And you just keep on livin' cause you never loved me.
Well a few months ago I would have been crying but now I just think about it
and I guess nothing would have changed if I had just told you a few weeks earlier.

EMA Teaser 2011

2011-11-02T00:05:00.000Z

This guy has a brilliant voice EMA Teaser just watch it :)

WHO are you?

2011-11-02T00:03:00.000Z

wow what have ya done?
You managed it to change a whole family to the worse I can't believe it. I knew him/them before he/they even met ya and I can see how he's changin and now I realized that all the rest of his family are also changin. It is such a horrible thing. They used to go out and talk to other and now it just seems like they are locked inside. They used to smile and now you just see sad faces.

What the hell are you? And why did you do that?
And believe me nobody wanted that, they had been so nice people before you walked in his/their life.
I hope I'll never have to meet ya 'cause I guess I'm gonna be the first person who shows ya what the real life is like and believe me it isn't full of people that will listen to ya. The real life is hard it's work and full of people that gonna tell you what you have to do.

2011-10-29T22:32:00.000+01:00

You are what your heart tells you is right

What the hell was that?

2011-10-23T07:55:00.000+01:00

I lived 2full months without even thinking about being with you. But tonight I had this dream and I don't know what that was supposed to mean.
I know that I'll never be with you. 1st cause of you & 2nd cause you are not the one I want

But why the hell did I have that dream?

How much can you miss a person?

2011-10-21T22:01:00.001+01:00

I just need to see a pict, hear your voice, think of you all that makes me cry. And I still wonder why I don't dare it to send you a message or even call you.

YOU ARE IMPORTANT

2011-10-21T19:45:00.000+01:00

Here I am sitting on my couch just listening to some old recodings of you voice and tears comming up.
It is such a good and also sad feeling.
I whish you'd know how much you really mean to me and my life.
It's like you make my life even more likely to live for.
You're voice is just like a drug to me.
I hope I'll never forget how you talked to me how you touched me.

But sometimes there are things you don't want to forget but you have to forget but I dpn't have to foget you I need you in my life.

Where am I?

2011-10-16T00:18:00.000+01:00

I always thought this is the right way but now I feel lonely.
I should never have told you but now I can't reverse it. I just love this one guy and I know I'll never be with him he could just be my best friend.
I just want someone to talk to but there is no one who would understand.
This world can be so lonely sometimes. I really don't want it to be like this: I have to make the move just the let them know that I'm here for each of them 'cause I care for people and their feelings.

Here I am-Spike Jonze

2011-10-16T00:08:00.000+01:00

Well I started watchin this short film:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u2Tu4VwYz

and I thought that some of you may like it so just watch it and let it in

Everything I am

2011-10-03T00:22:00.000+01:00

I am what I am and nobody can change me because this is my life and I make it to what I want it to be. So if you are not satisfied you may should change your way of thinking about people who are different.
And I'm proud of being different-Being part of something special makes you special :)

Live your dream- Don't dream your life

2011-10-03T00:15:00.000+01:00

When I saw her walkin in the streets holding hands with the guy I wish I had I just thought

" I wish I could have a life like they have" but then I remembered that this is my life and I can make it to what I want it to be. Even though it hurts to think about her lying next to the guy I want as my man.

But I'm gonna find my man because this is my life.

And I only got this one life to make it to the best life I can imagine.

2011-09-26T01:38:00.001+01:00

I have a picture in my mind-it's not you and then my heart shows me a picture with you on it
I really don't know what to do- torn between

2011-09-26T01:34:00.001+01:00

Evertime I remeber a situation in the past it makes me smile for a second but then tears commin' up.

England

2011-09-15T19:27:00.000+01:00

Why I love it
- humor
-people
-beautiful guys
-nobody tells you off for speaking english
-wonderful countryside
-amazing places
-Royal Family

Everything I am is English
Everything I want is to be accepted

so many guys but only just to find HIM

2011-09-09T12:53:00.000+01:00

There is just one man who can make a woman feel special and till she has found him she'll meet many other guys.

-the one that just uses her
-the one which never listens
-the one who is actually ugly
-the one she thinks if perfect
-the one who isn't for real
-the one she never wants to lose
-the one who becomes her best friend
-the one that always meets his friends and ignores her

and there are so many other guys till she meets:

-THE ONE <3

Some say that I'm

2011-09-07T18:27:00.000+01:00

-bitch
-slut
-ugly
-annoying
-useless
-stupid

and so on but what do I care?

In the past I cared and now I know I should never ever do that again. Because I'm the only one who really knows who I am...And so it's just my way and someday I'll find someone to walk with on this path unwinding
...till we find our place in the circle of life...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TAmQFSXtx_g

It's my life

2011-09-07T18:10:00.000+01:00

and I just want to live it the way I want.
So you just better shut up...

why?

2011-09-05T20:49:00.001+01:00

Why didn't you say a word?
You just stood there starring at me, but why?

2011-08-23T22:23:00.000+01:00

Es ist um mich geschieht,
ich hab mich in Dich verliebt.

Du lächelst mich an
und ich schmunzel dann.

Wir reden über alles
Und ich weiß,
ich darf das hier gar nicht alles,
denn Du willst es nicht,
Du sagst du kannst es nicht.
Du sagst Du brauchst wen,
dem Du vertraust,
und ganz tief in die Augen schaust.
Ich dachte,
dass bin ich,
doch so ist es wohl nich.

Du willst mich als beste Freundin,
doch Ich liebe Dich.
Ich kann
Und will es doch eigentlich gar nicht.

Als ich Dich sah,
ist es um mich geschehen,
dein Lächeln,
deine Augen,
alles ist so wunderbar.
Doch wie ist es wirklich?
Was ist mit uns?

live it now

2011-08-23T22:21:00.000+01:00

It hurts me thinking that you gonna go to bed with him and I'll just have to live with it.
But belive me, one day I'm gonna find a guy who is perfect, just like him or even better.

During I'm thinking about this I could cry, but I hold my tears 'cause I know it won't change anything I'm just wasting my time with it.

Who can tell when it's the right time to stop thinking? -no one does, so just LIVE YOUR LIFE

-because you only got this time to live it right-

...

2011-08-23T22:16:00.000+01:00

..there will always be people which are better than you
but as long as there are people worse than you
there's no need to worry

Conversation:

2011-08-19T23:09:00.000+01:00

He: How many friends do you got?
-She: 5
He: What?! only 5? You joking
-She: NO... I though you mean FRIENDS
He: Yeah I mean FRIENDS I've got 20 at least
-She: And how many of them would come to you if you would have cancer or something like that?
He: Puh, I don't know, maybe 6 or 7
-She: You see, so you've got 6 friends and not 20 or more.

WE ARE TALKING ABOUT FRIENDSHIP

Real friends would care if you would have cancer.
So people really think of how many real FRIENDS do you got, how many would care and how many just wouldn't even notice if you are gone

You are just like a drug

2011-08-19T02:08:00.000+01:00

You start talking- I start crying
You start singing- Ican't stop crying
You start dancing- I can't stop starring
You start doing all at once- I'm amazed

You are a wonderful and I'll always love you

You just don't know me

2011-08-19T00:14:00.000+01:00

If you would you wouldn't say that you love me.
You would probably hate me like all yor friends do.

You don't understand what I ment by saying that to you...

But someday you'll regret wasting time for telling me that you would love me.
And I'm sorry for not telling you earlier that you aren't the one who touches my heart.

You are NOT worth my tears

2011-08-13T23:51:00.000+01:00

Just a few days ago I was crying till I wasn't able to cry anymore.
I was thinking so much about you and me.
If there is something between us or if there has ever been.
Well, I still don't know but I don't waste my thoughts anymore.
I don't waste my tears anymore.
Someone in this world knows how I feel ,but it's not you...

But I have come to the conclusion : YOU are NOT worth my TEARS...

Es geht nicht immer nur um dich!!

2011-08-13T23:44:00.000+01:00

Nur weil ich mich über etwas (öffenltich) aufrege, geht es nicht direkt um dich.
Versteh das endlich mal. Du bist nicht allein auf der Welt.

Früher, ja, da habe ich fast jede Sekunde an dich gedacht, doch mittlerweile verschwende ich diese Gedanken nicht mehr an dich.

Es gibt genug andere Menschen auf der Welt, die es viel mehr als du verdient haben, das ich an sie denke.

Und irgendwo da ist auch dieser besondere Mensch, der jeden Tag seine Gedanken an mich verschwendet. Und eines Tages werden wir uns finden.

Und bis dahin werde ich nie mehr einen einzigen Gedanken und keine einzige Träne an dich verschwenden.
Es gibt Menschen die haben es einfach mehr verdient, sie wissen meine Gefühle zu schätzen.

Freunde oder Feinde !?!

2011-08-13T20:44:00.000+01:00

Du fragst mich, ob wir Freunde sein wollen.
Ich nehme die Frage an.
Und dann dann kommt das wir Feinde wären.
Danke dafür, dass du mich noch nichtmal kennst, vergisst du dabei aber irgendwie.
Du sollst mir egal sein. Es ist mir nicht mehr wichtig.
Ich weiß auf wen ich zählen kann und das ist das einzig wichtige

♥-----------Einzigartig------------- ♥

2011-08-12T14:13:00.000+01:00

"Du brauchst dich nicht zu ändern"
---Sicher, nur akzepiert das niemand, wie ich jetz bin.
" Was interssieren dich die anderen, Ich Liebe dich so wie du bist"
---Ich Liebe dich auch mit jedem deiner Fehler, sie machen dich zu dem was du bist.

Beschwere dich nicht über andere, versuche sie und ihr handeln zu verstehen.

Früher war es so:

2011-08-12T14:08:00.000+01:00

Ich Rede- über dich

Ich denke- an dich

Ich Träume- von dir

Ich schreibe- über dich

Ich weine- wegen dir

Ja-so war das, nur du warst in meinem Kopf. Aber jetzt bist du mir egal. Ich habe dich gerne als Kumpel. Doch nichts weiter. Denn du hast damit mein Herz verletzt. Und mein Kopf tat mir so weh. Ich habe so viele Tränen an dich verschwendet.

2011-08-12T11:56:00.000+01:00

DU hast gesagt DU lässt mich NIE allein...
Und jetzt bin ich ALLEIN.

Warum hast du mir das angetan?
Ich dachte wir könnten Freunde werden.
Doch jetzt ist alles ruhig.
Ich halte es nicht aus, diese Stille ist furchtbar.
Nur ein Wort von dir, das ist alles was ich brauche.

Vorurteile?!

2011-08-11T17:36:00.001+01:00

Viele Menschen urteilen nach Aussehnen oder haben Vorurteile.
Nur weil jemand klein ist, nur weil jemand eine andere Hautfarbe hat, weil er eine andere Kultur hat oder nur weil jemand eine behinderung hat ist er gleich nichts oder weniger als ihr wert? NEIN!
Jeder Mensch hat eine Chance verdient ->man muss sie ihm nur geben und nicht sofort Urteilen.
Eine Freundschaft braucht Zeit um zu entsthen, doch kann innerhalb von sekunden zerstört werden.

My new life

2011-08-11T17:35:00.000+01:00

Now I’m standing here
Nobody thought I would get up here
And now they sitting in the crowd
They don’t know I made it
They think I’m dead

But people here I am
I can see all you embarrased faces
You all never believed in me
Now I show you what I made of your hate

You all do nothing but staring at me
It is nothing else than you did before
Just the little difference that you look up to me
And I’m not the little girl I’ve been before

This is my new live
And I told you that I’ll do it
I live it how I ever wanted it to be
It is mine and you won’t take it away from me

I found my way
I know it was hard
But now I can enjoy it
It was worth the fighting

Just to see all your embarrsed faces
That was worth it
Now I stand here enjoying my new live
And you are all still stuck in your old lives
It feels so good
I love it

The boy I could never forget

2011-08-11T17:24:00.000+01:00

You were my boy

I ever loved you

I never wanted to be without you

But now I’m loosing you

I can’t understand it

It has been such a good feeling with you

But now I wonder

Have you ever touched me?

Have you ever noticed me?

I can’t understand it

It felt so good

But my memories are gone

Theres not a pice left

Nothing reminds me of you

I just wonder

Have you ever cared about me?

Have you ever thought about my feelings?

I tried to get over it

But there is no way to forget you

So many things happened between us

But somehow you are leaving me alone

So I really ask myself

Are you worth the tears?

Are you worth my worries?

You have been the boy I ever wanted to hold hands with

I ever wanted to feel your body next to mine

But now you are gone

I miss you and I wonder why

Ihr könnt mich alle mal

2011-08-11T17:18:00.000+01:00

Ihr habt alle keine Ahnung wie es mir dabei geht.

Was ihr mit euren Worten getan habt.

Mit nur einem Wort habt ihr soviel Zerstört.

Ihr wisst echt nicht worauf es ankommt.

Wieviel hab ich verloren?

Warum hab ich mich damals darauf eingelassen?

Doch jetzt, jetzt versuche ich zu leben.

Ach was sage ich, versuchen?

ICH MACH ES EINFACH -> ICH LEBE MEIN LEBEN

Ich lebe mein Leben

2011-08-11T15:44:00.000+01:00

Ich hab es verstanden. Ich musste soviel durchmachen. Doch jetzt beginne ich mein Leben zu leben. Ich nehme keine Rücksicht mehr auf dich, du hast mich zum anhalten gebracht. Ich habe soviel wertvolle Zeit verloren.

Aber jetzt bin ich hier. Und du kannst mich nicht aufhalten und niemand anderes bringt mich zu anhalten.

Ich warte auf niemanden. Es ist mein Leben.